This has become a very big challenge for me. Trying to blog and I keep forgetting. I am very distracted at this time. I can't seem to keep my mind going in the right direction. There is one very big distraction that I have right know and it is totally out of the box for me.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW...The sun is out and the rain has moved on. I am glad about that because the kids can play outside. Even though in the last month I have become a fan of the rain. there are many things I would love to do and try in the rain. More to come on that subject.

OUT OF A FOUR YEAR OLDS MOUTH...Why do you kiss Daddy like that? Girls don't kiss boys unless its their Daddy.


MY NEW FOUND LOVE....Bubba and I have gone back to the basics and it is so much fun. I am loving every minute of this. I am back to really missing him when he isn't right by my side. I feel like a teenager in falling head over hhills in love again. Can't believe I missed it for the last year. I truly love Bubba with all my heart and soul. I am so glad we are learning so much more about each other. Even though some of the stuff I am learning about him is way out of my box. I may get with it one day though.

OUT OF THE KITCHEN...I am making Hamburgers with mashed potatoes and mushroom gravy. Also french style green beans. Yum.

Well I am going to sign off for now. Have a blessed time.

Didn't get to blog last night.We had church. It was very good. This lady named Blessing is teaching our Bible study. She talked on healing. How you have to be willing to except that prayer of healing to receive it. I am still in question over that. I believe if you pray hard enough God will heal anyone. She also talked about what we use our tongue for. Like in what we say. If you speak negative into your life then you will recieve it so why not speak positive.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW...It is actually sunny outside. The kids got to play outside. It sure helps to burn that energy. I love the sun and can't wait for more of it.

OUT OF A 4 YEAR OLDS MOUTH...Today at daycare the girls talked to the parents about the zoo. The subject was the rhinos. They would say the rhino has a really big tail. Well as I have said earlier the animals at the zoo are in mating season. A long tail is a fine way to explain it cuz mommy isn't ready to explain it another way.

BUBBA AND ME....We have started a new subject a night talk. This is very interesting. I didn't know a lot about my husband that I should. It is amazing to me that you can be together for 15 years and not really know each other the right way. That is a goal of ours is to get to know each other in all ways. Most of my not knowing him is a lot in the sex field. The reason for that is I use to be very private with sex and a behind closed doors person. Now that I am forty it is hard to control that in all places. I get myself in trouble on facebook all the time.

AT DAYCARE....We had all our teachers out today then Katie got sick and had to go home. We made it though. I made homemade pizza, crust and all. It was a hit. I have to work late. Cameron didn't have to stay. He got to go fishing and was very excited. Will wait for news on that.

I am very excited about all the new things happening in my life. Can't wait to see what's to come. Hope everyone has a blessed day.

Today my girls are 4. Where in the world has time gone. We spent the day at the zoo then home to nap and get ready for Daddy to come home. It has been one busy day. Now to get us all ready for bed cuz I get to go back to work tomorrow. Yeah me.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW... It is cold. It has been all day to. It is Spring break and it gets to be cold outside. I am still wearing my flip flops trying to help sping along.

OUT OF A FOUR YEAR OLDS MOUTH...Now that they are four we will be doing four instead of three. Today at the zoo the Rhino has his stuff hanging way down to the ground and beyond. Well Jaycee has to ask... Mommy why is he having that thing down there? Well I get out of that cuz we just keep on walking. It is rough going to the zoo during mating season. Cuz the tigers are being very loud where you can hear them throughout the zoo. Macey keeps asking what that noice is. We finally get over to the tigers to see that the male wants to be by the female and keeps running into the hot wire. What a great day at the zoo.

Today has been a exciting one. I missed my husband being with us today, but he had to work. We will celebrate the girls birthday on Saturday together as a family. Hope everyone has a blessed day. I know I did.

I have had a great weekend with my husband and shildren free thanks to Shelby and Deb. I am very thankful for them. It is so nice to be kid free every once in a while. I love my children so much and that is why you need time away so that you can learn to enjoy them more. The same goes for your spouse.

ON THE GO... Monday. I as off work so we did some spring cleaning. A lot of rest. Now to make dinner for my husband. I am missin Bubba a lot today.
Tuesday.. the girls Jaycee and Macey will be FOUR. Omg that is crazy to me where has the time gone. We are all going to the zoo with family. I can't wait to see the baby giraffe and the children's zoo.
Wednesday.. I have to go back to work. Yuk! It shouldn't be to bad, but I love to sleep in.
Thursday.. We will be working again.Then get ready for the weekend. Lots to do to get ready for the girls party.
Friday.. After work we will stay home to rest up for tommorrow.
Saturday..Girls birthday party at Chuck E Cheese. Then to go on a date with my husband.

ON MY HEART AND MIND...There is still loads going on in my marriage which we are working on full force. I didn't realize that my dad having a stroke would be such a stress on my marriage. I didn;t realize that i didn't give my husband the attention that he needed. Plus our marriage needed too. I really feel this is when the red light should come on to give you a warning that something is wrong, but no. God lets it go on this way for a reason. I believe that with all my heart. Well then when Bubba had to go on storm call we both got a wake up call when he came home. A wake up call we needed. So we are now spending each night visiting about the day then for 30 minutes we talk about how to improve our relationship. This is really fun to do. I feel like we are first dating again and learning so much about each other. I am so in live with him even after 15 years of being together. That is so amazing to me. I feel like I need him all the time.

I AM HEARING...girls crying because our brother won't leave us alone. Cameron picks at them all the time. On day they will gang up on him and beat him. That may teach him then.

AROUND THE HOUSE...We cleaned the house this morning. Now we are resting waitin for our Daddy to come home from work. The kids are watching movies and fussin. What a great day.

I AM THANKFUL FOR... I love being forty. I can't believe the change in my body and mind. This is a little different for me. I am coming out of my box in all parts of my life. I am still in shock about the sex drive that I have going on. That is a big wow for my husband. I am also aorking on doing different things that are out of my box. Like Kissing in the rain. That was big for me cuz I don't like the rain. Then watching Alice in Wonderland. It is a wierd movie, but good. the things you do at forty. Watch out here I come.

ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS...On Saturday Bubba and I went out together. We spent all day. We both got pedicures which was wonderful. This is one of my favorite thing. I could do this on a daily bases. I really believve that Bubba enjoyed his self to because he fell asleep a couple of times. I have my toes painted dark purple. I usually get a red or pink so this is another out of my box thing. If you haven't had a pedicure I say go get one now.

I AM THINKING...That God is good all the time. I know that I know that God brings things into your life for a reason. I believe what we have gone through in this year has happened for a reason. I may of thought I would die at one point, but I am alive and ready to face the world now. Yesterday was one year since my dad's stroke. This has changed our family in a big way. Dad's attitude is so amazing now. he doesn't just think it he lets it all come out. He is such a different person. I sometimes wonder what if this would of happened years ago. Would it be the same? I am so thankful for my Dad. I love him dearly.

Well this is a lot for me. I shall go for now. Have a blessed day.

It has been so long that I have blogged that I don't know where to start. This is how it gets to be overwhelming. I'm sure of that.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW...It is cloudy in Guthrie America today and a little on the cool side. I am still very ready for Spring. I have put on the flip flops to boot.

I AM THANKFUL FOR... I am thankful for my husband. We have been together for 15 years. It just amazes me. We have had a rough couple of weeks here that is one reason I had trouble blogging. Cuz i feel I can not put that into words that anyone could understand. We have never really faught, but this last month has been a booger. Now as of Sunday I think we are back on the straight road of love. We are going to start dating again and getting our old love back. The last two days the weather has kept him from working and we have been together after I get off at noon. It has been amazing.

FORTY LIST MARK OUTS...Well the rain came in on Monday so Bubba and I went to lunch. After lunch I got to kiss my husband in the rain. It is totally amazing. It was a cold rain so I don't recommand that, but we will do this again because it was so right. I also was out of my box that day because I'm not a rain person and we got soaked. It was pouring. I'm a shower girl, no lakes, no ponds, no no no. So the skinny dipping is going to be a challenge for me also. I am working on reading the Bible through in a year.

This weekend is going to be full of Bubba and Tammy time. I can not wait for this. We need this. I don't think I have talked to my husband this much or spent this much time with him in over a year. I few like I'm falling in love with him again. I do and have always loved him, but this is so different. I am excited to see whats to come. If anyone has ideas on this or has had this problem let me know. The more imput the better it shall go.

To be Forty and in love again with a man you have been with for 15 years is out of this world.I love Bubba.

Have a blessed day.

Well it has been so long since I blogged. I have been a little preoccupied. My husband has been home since the 16 of February. It has been great. So I will try to do a quick write up on the last few days.

TUESDAY THE 16...Well I talk to Bubba all day as he was getting finished with the job to be able to come home. Man am I ever excited. Still haven't told the kids. Going to wait to see how they act when we pull in and see the bucket truck on the road. I have a relay meeting to go to tonight. It will have to be short and sweet cuz i want to visit then cuddle with my husband.

Well when I get off work I talk to bubba and he is almost home. He wants Taco Bell for dinner. So I go and get dinner. Pick up the girls and Katie then we head toward the house. As we pull into the drive Cameron ask why there is a bucket truck by our house. The girls look up to see that is their Daddys truck and start to scream and jump up and down. They are very excited.

We all have dinner together then I go to the meeting. Bubba could barely eat cuz the girls just want to sit on him. When I get home Bubba has the kids in bed. I am glad cuz now we get to talk. We lay in bed to tlk and cuddle and Bubba falls asleep before 9. That means he is wiped out.

WEDNESDAY THE 17...Bubba's crew is off for the rest of the week. Since Sunday they have put in 50 hours. So they took off to rest and see their families. Bubba decides to take the bucket truck to Perkins and get t=his truck. When back in Guthrie he gets his oil changed. Then gets my van and has the oil changed and washes it. Wow!

THURSDAY THE 18....Bubba gets a new stereo for his truck.

FRIDAY THE 19...Well I didn't work all day I took off from both jobs today. Came home and had lunch with Bubba then took a 3 hour nap. Man that was great. Then we took the kids to Chuck E Cheese. They have changed that place so much. We had a blast. After we leave the kids ask can we go back to Chuck E Cheese. We get home relax and watch some TV.

SATURDAY THE 20... We get up early cuz I have a eye doctor appointment. I get new glasses so that is one of my 40 list done. Yeah me! After this we go to eat breakfast together while Shelby watches the kids. Come to find out she meets up with Katie and takes everyone to the zoo. Then Bubba and I go to get a full body message. It was so amazin. After that we went ot the movies to see Wolfman. Not a good movie. I thought it would be scary, but no just stupid. After that we went to dinner at Red Lobster. Yum. Now off to the bar. Which we didn't stay long. I was very uncomfortable. That's a whole story for something else not a blog. Anyway it led into a hugh fight at our house. Which has only happened one time in 13 years of marriage and 15 years of being together. Not bad, but then again not good either.

SUNDAY THE 21... I don't know if this is something to write about, but have been thinking about this all this day. Since I have turned 40 my hormones have been drivin me crazy. I don't know how to explain it any other way. Just wonder if I'm the only one? Today we went to my Dads for dinner. Great times.

MONDAY THE 22...I learn that my computer is broke and that I have viruses all over hte place. So no computer. Katie says she can try to fix it. Bubba and me are still having trouble. We can't get the truth out all the way yet. Why are guys so shut up in their emotions? It is driving me crazy. We are talking about the problems slowly though. So I guess thats a start.

WEDNESDAY THE 24...I find out why my somputer has viruses. Mike Gatlin is a genius he fixed it. Saved me alot of money. WOO HOO! I meet with Jennifer to find out some info on a argument. Man a lie is easier to fix then the other. So now I come home from the meeting and church. Bubba and I have a talk then make up. wow. Amazin.

THURSDAY THE 25... I mess with Bubba all day about meeting for lunch. Well he does come to the church so April finishes my work for me so I can come home to have lunch with my husband. Theres another one off my list. I suprised my husband because he is not use to me being so open about sex. Whish is totally out of my box too.

Well I have got to get off here for now. Maybe that will be a start. I will try to blog tomorrow. If I can quit getting so distracted.