The American Cancer Society - 2011 Relay For Life of Logan County OK:

The American Cancer Society - 2011 Relay For Life of Logan County OK:

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....It is raining and has been all day. There is more to come tomorrow too.

TAMMY'S FORTY LIST....I get to mark another off my list today. Bubba was home and we got to dance in the rain. We danced to I need you now by Lady Antebellum. It was well worth getting wet for. Cuz if you know me I don't like getting wet. Bare foot dancin in the rain is amazing.

BUBBA....Didn't work today because of all the rain.So he made stew for dinner. It was very good. We all got to have dinner together at the table.

Quote....When all else is lost...dance to make your heart sing and fill the darkness around you.

RELAY....We are in the process of collecting t-shirts to make quilts for Relay. we are going to make a OU, a OSU, and a Bluejay one. We are hoping to get ahead of the game on fundraising. Can't wait to see what happens. Katie and I have joined the committee this year and will have a team. We will do this forever if we have to or til they find a cure. CANCER SUCKS!

Well not much new going on. Hope this finds you all blessed. Have a great night.

If I can ever stay up to date with this it would be amazing. I have been very busy with school and work. Then Bubba did something to the computer and it erased all my Favorites list. We still don't know what happened.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....It is a very nice day out today. The sun is shining and it's not to hot either. The wind is blowing and we are waiting for the rain that they have said we would get.

SCHOOL FOR THE KIDS....We have had our ups and downs with the girls at school. Yellow and green lights. They are doing okay for being in school 11 days. They are not use to the structure that public school has. But they are getting there. Learning lots of new things with nursery rhymns and things. They love going to school too.
Cameron has had a few rough spots to work through too. He got beat up on the playground by two boys Shorty and Colvin. So I am in the process of getting that worked out. Crazy things. He is loving band. Doing good with this new sixth grade thing of changing classes. So far good reports. He got his scores back from last year test. He is in the top of the scores all the way across. I am so proud. His one down fall at school is friends and he says he has none. That tugs at my heart. I don't know what to say to help the matter. I just pray for God to be able to help him.
I am loving the bus. It is a long route,but it is fun. My kids are awesome. We got a few new ones this year. One is a six year old with brain cancer. I just feel a freat tug for him. One day he tells us as we are driving down the road..You two girls are a piece of cake. Tammy and me about died. We have great adventures on the bus.

TAMMY NEW THINGS....I got another tattoo. This time on my left foot. It is in chinese and says walk in truth. It wasn't too bad. Seth held my hand while Katie took pics,Bubba made fun of me and Denise talked me through it. Oh Brandon did the tattoo. Now I want another. I got it on the 21st of August.

BUBBA....Has been working a lot and is finally a little closer to home. He got a new tattoo on the 4th of September it is a OU one. Still working on the one on his arm. Today Bubba is out dove hunting with the DUCKS. Had to get up at 4am to go meet them.This is what he likes to do and this is a good group to do it with.
Today Bubba turned 35 years old. Wow its amazing.

Well enough for the day hope this finds you all blessed.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....It's raining and thundering. It is much needed rain. I'm not a rain girl, but we do need some it has been dry.

CAMERON TURNS ELEVEN....On Friday the 13th Cameron turned 11. We went out for dinner then tried to go to Frontier City,but it closed earlly cuz of school hours. It's still summer what the heck. So we went shopping at Wal-mart. Then came home for Brise to stay the night. On Saturday we got up to go to the mall. Everyone ate at the mall and got to eat what they wanted. Went to visit the Disney store then off to get cookies and Cameron's cookie cake. WE had his party at 6 and had a great time. Then we ordered pizza for dinner. No bed til 1am. It was a good birthday if I say so myself.

BUBBA AND BRANDON....They set up a table in the front room. This is to play beer pong. We heard all kinds of stories and learned lots of new things.

JAYCEE AND MACEY....They are into asking where did you get that all the time. So we have been telling them at the gettin place. So they ask where did you get brothers cookie at? Macey says oh at the getting place. Then papa asks Jaycee if he can take out her staples with his knife. She says no I am keeping them in for a long long time Papa. Crack me up. What is she going to do when the doctor takes them out on Tuesday.

I have been feeling very blessed. I have spent so much time with my best friend and her family it has been great. I am loving the new house and the times we are having in it. Hope this finds you blessed.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....The sun is going down and it is cooling off just a little. the day was very hot out. I love summer, but I am ready for this weather to cool off so we can enjoy the afternoon outside.

OUT OF A FOUR YEAR OLDS MOUTH.... Jaycee tells a little girl at daycare..can you just get out of my butt crack. Where do they come up with such things.

Jaycee is the one who got staples in the back of her head. Well she came crying down the hall saying her staples fell out. So I tell her to show Katie because I just don't do well with those things. Well as Katie is checking she see that they are all still in place and has to count them. the teacher sticks her head out the class and says no I told her it was fine. I say what happened? A little boy in the class found a staple on the floor and told Jaycee that she was losing her staples out of her head. We all just laughed. Kids!

THINGS WITH BUBBA....He is working out in this heat which is very hot. They are working in Holdenville reconducting line over there. It is a long drive, but he comes home every night which is great for us. I pray for his crew daily to stay well and not get over heated. I'm sure they are ready for cooler weather too.

CAMERON...His birthday is in a few days. We are going to have a stay over with four or five boys. this will be the first for us. We will see how that goes. He will be eleven and in the sixth grade. I can't believe it. Where has the time gone? He is very excited about his party. We got his room all ready to go. Hopefully it will survive all those boys.

JAYCEE AND MACEY...They are enrolled in four year old preschool, but we are on a waiting list. Hope we get in because they talk about going to grade school like it is very important.

Well enough for the evening I am going to spend this quiet time around the house with my husband. Hope this finds you blessed. Our God is awesome.

8 AUGUST 10

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....The sun is shining and it's already very warm out there. I like the view out my window now that we have moved. There is a hugh picture window in the living room with two walnut trees out front. It is great to sit here and watch outside. As I do this I think of my fat Gramma Goad. Se would love this window so she can be nosey and see all the neighbors. She would have a table sat in front of it so she could sit there with her coffee or tea. Gosh I miss that lady.

THE LIFE OF FOUR YEAR OLDS.....Well we had to go to the emergency room last night because Jaycee cut her head open. Yes it was Jaycee this time and not Macey. This is her first set of staples and she got five. We had gone to visit in Del City and the guys were working on the truck. Jaycee was standing on a center block watching the guys and dancing to the music of the ice-cream truck when she lost her balance and the block went over with her. She hit her head on the rim of the tire. I thought she hit it on the ramp. So we took her to the hospital. Denise kept Macey and Cameron. The time while we was gone Macey kept rubbing her head. It is so strange how they do this when the other gets hurt. It is a twin thing.

INSIDE THE NEW HOUSE....We are still trying to get things together it is a little crazy. I know it take a few weeks but I am ready for it to be done right now. It's really nice though cuz Katie has been here unpacking lots of stuff for me too.

Well this isn't getting stuff done so I will blog again soon. Hoping this finds you blessed.

Well its been way to long again. So much has been going on too. I am going to try to go back to days to be able to blog it in the right way.

June the 8th was the last time I blogged and the town of Guthrie America flooded. It was 27 feet above flood level. The water messed up another tree in Mineral wells park too. It's so amazing to me that they can not fix the problem. The one thing is is that it did flood in places that it hasn't before. I think we got like 10 inches of rain in a matter of hours. It was so crazy.
The roof in the house we rent was leaking in the dining room. The ceiling finally gave away though. So now we tell them and they don't want to fix it. So now looking for a place to move.

June the 5th went out to Del City to stay the weekend. We went out to Gram's couldn't get in because I didn't have a id and Katie's was expired. So we all loaded up in the van and made a trip to Guthrie. We had a great time. Denise, Johnny, Brandon, Jenae, Katie, Bubba, and me. Then we drove back to Del City to sleep.

June 12th we go back to Del City because Katie and I went to get Id's. So we go to Gram's again and get kicked out again cuz Brandon's shorts are to long. Who would of thought. So we head down to bricktown. We end up at Tap Works and had a great time. When we go to leave Katie can't walk and neither can Jenae. Jenae has a new friend on the corner. Katie and Brandon get married and Johnny and Bubba have to go get the van cuz we can't make it. The next morning those thee can not remember anything. Oh fun times.

June the 26th we get up to pack to head to Lake Texamo with all the Ducks. I'm not a camper, but I am going to try to be a camper in a tent and all. So we take four vechicals down the road and follow Steve Duck. We take our time and visit all the way. We even did the senic turn outs in Turner Falls. It was great I have never stop there in all these years. We make it to our camp site and set up all the things we need. We have a great time, the kids lve swimming in the lake. I even got in the lake. We got to roast marshmellows at the campfire too. We visited about tons of things had great times. We slept in our tent under the night stars. It was great being by the water and sleeping. In the morning we got up with the sun and made breakfast then started our day of visiting over again. When we loaded up to come home on Monday the kids are all sad, sunburned, and very tired. We did have a awesome time though. I even learned to squat to pee. Woohoo me.
We came home to finish out our week of vacation to pack the house to move out. Becase the people we rent from doesn't want to fix the broke things here. Then the ceiling fell in in the dining room. So we are going to store everything in storage and move in with Denise for a while til we find a house.
We move in at Denise's at Del City. We learn to live in a small room, but have a great time. We all learned from each other. Great times.we all got a little spoiled while living there. I cooked and they all gained weight. They helped with the kids and that gave me the much needed help I needed. I think we all did very well and made us stronger in our relationships.
They spoiled the girls to no end.
We spent a month driving back and forth to Guthrie to work and find a house. We slept on Cameron's bunkbed. We visited lots and learned new things. Jenae and Katie came own to stay with us osome weekends. One of our favorite things oe Saturday was the icecream truck. That was great.
Bubba got to help work on the truck and jeep. Denise and me got to do lots of catch up time and to learn this we didn't know about the lst couple of years. It was amzing to be with my best friend. That was one of my forty things to do so I gt to mark that off.
On July 24th I got a tattoo of the whole world on my had. Brandon is doing tattoos now. Katie got one too. Brandon has been working on Bubba's for a few weeks now. It is neat to watch.
Anyway on the 30th of July we got the keys to a house. On the 31st we moved in. We have a awesome moving crew. They did the best job ever.
Well if left anything out I will try to rememeber it for later. I will then blog it.

I am signing off for now. Hoping this finds you Blessed.

This is Bubba's new toy. He loves the new four wheeled. The girls want to go for a ride everyday.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW...The heat has arrived. It is great. Thank God for the AC.

OUT OF A FOUR YEAR OLDS MOUTH....Katie gave Maceya kiss goodbye today. Macey then walked over to me to say "I have to get married now because Katie kissed me." I'm young to get married right Mommy.

HAPPENINGS AT MY HOUSE....Katie is staying with us for a few days. This has been a challenge for me and Bubba. We have to watch where we take off our clothes. Really a hard thing to do. We are enjoying the company. Cameron is gone to Del City to stay with Brice for the week. He hasn't called or text at all. So today I text him to check in, but he didn't have time for his Momma.

AT WORK....I am cooking for the summer so I have the best hours ever. I work from 8 to 1 which is really amazing.

THIS LAST WEEKEND...Bubba and I went out with friends for the night on Saturday. Denver kept the girls and said they did well.
We took Katie and Jenae out for their birthdays. Johnny, Denise, and Brandon joined us. We had a great time. Katie and Jenae got to see a different side of me. The Duck's just got to see the old Tammy come out. We had a great time dancing and talking about old times. We plan to do this again soon.

I am still working on keeping the negative out of my life and getting all the drama out. So far it has been great. I have removed a few people and it has helped so much. I talked with another person who has taken one person out of their life and has had a great experience too. Its funny that its the same person.

Well I am a very happy person. Thanks be to God. Have a blessed day.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....It is summer outside the weather is pretty awesome. I am glad the warm weather waited so long to arrive. I am ready for summer though. I love the warm weather and the sun.

THINGS ON MY MIND.....I have given up alot in my life. I am now giving up people users. You can only give so much. When people want to take take take you just have to stop it sometime. Well this has been the month for me to do this. I am also trying to clean out the negative in mmy life too. That one has been hard. So I consider it a work in progress.

MY KIDS.....Well they all three have turtles that they take out to play with. I'm not a turtle person though. This is a fun thing to do for the summer then we will turn them lose in September.

BUBBA AND HIS CREW....They went on storm call two weeks ago for all the tornados down by Shawnee and Seminole. This was wet and rough. The storms are bad down there.

OUR STORM CALL VISIT...Since Bubba was away all week we decided to take the kids to stay in the motel to be able to see him. Even if its for just a little bit. The kids love going to visit. The favorite part was the indoor pool. They loved being able to swim when it was cool outside. They got to have lunch with Daddy's friends and then have dinner with Daddy at the motel later. On Sunday on the way home we took them for a drive around the area to see the disaster. It just amazes me how it tears up one house then skips the next. The girls just kept saying look what the tornado did. Cameron got to ride in the bucket truck home with Bubba and he thought that was just it.

Well I am still tryin to be a blogger, but am having a hard time with it. I did get a Iphone for Mother's day so I may learn how to post from there. Maybe I can keep up then.
Hoope everyone has a blessed day.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW.....the storms came and went. It is very nice outside right now. I am loving this weather. I don't like what it's doing to all the communities around us. Or the fact that it has taken my husband far away again. Bubba has gone out to the South of Shawnee to help get the electric on.

There has been tons of things going on in the last month. We had Relay and raised $47,000 which our goal was $45,000. We had a great time down at Mineral Wells park. the following weekend I went over to Cushing to relay with Crystal. I walked up with a shirt that says "I relay for my sister". In Guthrie relay The team wore shirts that say "I wear teal for my aunt, momma, sister, and daughter. My best friend came to Relay with me this year. Even though I was super busy I was very excited for her to be there.

We have also learned that Gram has breast cancer. She had the left breast totally removed. She doesn't have to have chemo or radiation. This is a total blessing.

Well I just wanted to update for the night but I have to get kids ready for bed. I will try again this week since Bubba is gone.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....The air is cool and it has rained since Friday. The rain stopped on Sunday afternoon. We are liking the rain right now. This is letting the moral mushrooms grow really well. The girls and Cameron can't seem to get enough of them.

OUT OF A FOUR YEAR OLDS MOUTH...Jaycee and Macey played outside the other day picking flowers. Jaycee picked one up that had a broken stem. She looked to heaven and threw the flower up. She then said, "Here you go God". We had been discussing how people go to heaven when they die. So she thought it was a good idea for the flower to go there too.

THINGS I HAVE BEEN DOING... I have been getting ready for Realy. Which is in 12 days. I am still trying to raise enough money for the kids. I am sure we will get there with no problem.
I have also been worrying about Jenae. Her Grandpa shot himself. I was the first one she called to come to her rescue. I have never experienced a shooting or anything like this. Death is death, but suicide is so much harder on the Family. so many unanswered questions. I just believe that God had his hands upon that because the family did come out with some peace. the funeral was very touching and Jenea sang Amazing Grace. She is the bomb singer. I was so proud of her at this time to be able to sing with all her family so emotional.I love Jenea.

THINGS ON CAMERON...Cameron made Bluejay of the month for April. Whisch we are very proud. He is also having to go to the doctor alot right now. I can't remember if I wrote on him being in the hospital. We had to go to the emergency room for being so impacted. Then they put him in the hospital to clean him out. Well after 6 enemas and a night at the hospital he still didn't get cleaned out. So then we had to go see Dr. Grunow. From him Cameron had to do a day clean out that seemed to work. Gatorade and mrylax. Now we are just waiting to see what the next set of x-rays say.

THINGS WITH THE TWINS....Since their mother is crazy and forgets to take them to get shots we had to go after we are four. They did very good. They told the nurse that they was going to get shots and then get a prize. They watched her get all the stuff together then she asked who will go first. Jaycee says Macey and Macey says yes I will go first.When the nurse poked her with the needle Macey screamed and big tears came down. At this time I thought we would have to have help, but no she turned right around for the nurse to do the other two shots. Still crying and screaming, but i got to hold her with no help. then she wanted to make sure she got three bandaids. Now her is the test. Jaycee would usually have to have extra holding since her sister had such a hard time, but no she crawled up on my lap and said I'm not going cry.then the nurse stuck her and she screamed and had big tears too. I am just so suprised with both of them. It was a great experience for us.

Well I think I've done some catch up so I am going to go for now. Have a blessed day.

This has become a very big challenge for me. Trying to blog and I keep forgetting. I am very distracted at this time. I can't seem to keep my mind going in the right direction. There is one very big distraction that I have right know and it is totally out of the box for me.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW...The sun is out and the rain has moved on. I am glad about that because the kids can play outside. Even though in the last month I have become a fan of the rain. there are many things I would love to do and try in the rain. More to come on that subject.

OUT OF A FOUR YEAR OLDS MOUTH...Why do you kiss Daddy like that? Girls don't kiss boys unless its their Daddy.


MY NEW FOUND LOVE....Bubba and I have gone back to the basics and it is so much fun. I am loving every minute of this. I am back to really missing him when he isn't right by my side. I feel like a teenager in falling head over hhills in love again. Can't believe I missed it for the last year. I truly love Bubba with all my heart and soul. I am so glad we are learning so much more about each other. Even though some of the stuff I am learning about him is way out of my box. I may get with it one day though.

OUT OF THE KITCHEN...I am making Hamburgers with mashed potatoes and mushroom gravy. Also french style green beans. Yum.

Well I am going to sign off for now. Have a blessed time.

Didn't get to blog last night.We had church. It was very good. This lady named Blessing is teaching our Bible study. She talked on healing. How you have to be willing to except that prayer of healing to receive it. I am still in question over that. I believe if you pray hard enough God will heal anyone. She also talked about what we use our tongue for. Like in what we say. If you speak negative into your life then you will recieve it so why not speak positive.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW...It is actually sunny outside. The kids got to play outside. It sure helps to burn that energy. I love the sun and can't wait for more of it.

OUT OF A 4 YEAR OLDS MOUTH...Today at daycare the girls talked to the parents about the zoo. The subject was the rhinos. They would say the rhino has a really big tail. Well as I have said earlier the animals at the zoo are in mating season. A long tail is a fine way to explain it cuz mommy isn't ready to explain it another way.

BUBBA AND ME....We have started a new subject a night talk. This is very interesting. I didn't know a lot about my husband that I should. It is amazing to me that you can be together for 15 years and not really know each other the right way. That is a goal of ours is to get to know each other in all ways. Most of my not knowing him is a lot in the sex field. The reason for that is I use to be very private with sex and a behind closed doors person. Now that I am forty it is hard to control that in all places. I get myself in trouble on facebook all the time.

AT DAYCARE....We had all our teachers out today then Katie got sick and had to go home. We made it though. I made homemade pizza, crust and all. It was a hit. I have to work late. Cameron didn't have to stay. He got to go fishing and was very excited. Will wait for news on that.

I am very excited about all the new things happening in my life. Can't wait to see what's to come. Hope everyone has a blessed day.

Today my girls are 4. Where in the world has time gone. We spent the day at the zoo then home to nap and get ready for Daddy to come home. It has been one busy day. Now to get us all ready for bed cuz I get to go back to work tomorrow. Yeah me.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW... It is cold. It has been all day to. It is Spring break and it gets to be cold outside. I am still wearing my flip flops trying to help sping along.

OUT OF A FOUR YEAR OLDS MOUTH...Now that they are four we will be doing four instead of three. Today at the zoo the Rhino has his stuff hanging way down to the ground and beyond. Well Jaycee has to ask... Mommy why is he having that thing down there? Well I get out of that cuz we just keep on walking. It is rough going to the zoo during mating season. Cuz the tigers are being very loud where you can hear them throughout the zoo. Macey keeps asking what that noice is. We finally get over to the tigers to see that the male wants to be by the female and keeps running into the hot wire. What a great day at the zoo.

Today has been a exciting one. I missed my husband being with us today, but he had to work. We will celebrate the girls birthday on Saturday together as a family. Hope everyone has a blessed day. I know I did.

I have had a great weekend with my husband and shildren free thanks to Shelby and Deb. I am very thankful for them. It is so nice to be kid free every once in a while. I love my children so much and that is why you need time away so that you can learn to enjoy them more. The same goes for your spouse.

ON THE GO... Monday. I as off work so we did some spring cleaning. A lot of rest. Now to make dinner for my husband. I am missin Bubba a lot today.
Tuesday.. the girls Jaycee and Macey will be FOUR. Omg that is crazy to me where has the time gone. We are all going to the zoo with family. I can't wait to see the baby giraffe and the children's zoo.
Wednesday.. I have to go back to work. Yuk! It shouldn't be to bad, but I love to sleep in.
Thursday.. We will be working again.Then get ready for the weekend. Lots to do to get ready for the girls party.
Friday.. After work we will stay home to rest up for tommorrow.
Saturday..Girls birthday party at Chuck E Cheese. Then to go on a date with my husband.

ON MY HEART AND MIND...There is still loads going on in my marriage which we are working on full force. I didn't realize that my dad having a stroke would be such a stress on my marriage. I didn;t realize that i didn't give my husband the attention that he needed. Plus our marriage needed too. I really feel this is when the red light should come on to give you a warning that something is wrong, but no. God lets it go on this way for a reason. I believe that with all my heart. Well then when Bubba had to go on storm call we both got a wake up call when he came home. A wake up call we needed. So we are now spending each night visiting about the day then for 30 minutes we talk about how to improve our relationship. This is really fun to do. I feel like we are first dating again and learning so much about each other. I am so in live with him even after 15 years of being together. That is so amazing to me. I feel like I need him all the time.

I AM HEARING...girls crying because our brother won't leave us alone. Cameron picks at them all the time. On day they will gang up on him and beat him. That may teach him then.

AROUND THE HOUSE...We cleaned the house this morning. Now we are resting waitin for our Daddy to come home from work. The kids are watching movies and fussin. What a great day.

I AM THANKFUL FOR... I love being forty. I can't believe the change in my body and mind. This is a little different for me. I am coming out of my box in all parts of my life. I am still in shock about the sex drive that I have going on. That is a big wow for my husband. I am also aorking on doing different things that are out of my box. Like Kissing in the rain. That was big for me cuz I don't like the rain. Then watching Alice in Wonderland. It is a wierd movie, but good. the things you do at forty. Watch out here I come.

ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS...On Saturday Bubba and I went out together. We spent all day. We both got pedicures which was wonderful. This is one of my favorite thing. I could do this on a daily bases. I really believve that Bubba enjoyed his self to because he fell asleep a couple of times. I have my toes painted dark purple. I usually get a red or pink so this is another out of my box thing. If you haven't had a pedicure I say go get one now.

I AM THINKING...That God is good all the time. I know that I know that God brings things into your life for a reason. I believe what we have gone through in this year has happened for a reason. I may of thought I would die at one point, but I am alive and ready to face the world now. Yesterday was one year since my dad's stroke. This has changed our family in a big way. Dad's attitude is so amazing now. he doesn't just think it he lets it all come out. He is such a different person. I sometimes wonder what if this would of happened years ago. Would it be the same? I am so thankful for my Dad. I love him dearly.

Well this is a lot for me. I shall go for now. Have a blessed day.

It has been so long that I have blogged that I don't know where to start. This is how it gets to be overwhelming. I'm sure of that.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW...It is cloudy in Guthrie America today and a little on the cool side. I am still very ready for Spring. I have put on the flip flops to boot.

I AM THANKFUL FOR... I am thankful for my husband. We have been together for 15 years. It just amazes me. We have had a rough couple of weeks here that is one reason I had trouble blogging. Cuz i feel I can not put that into words that anyone could understand. We have never really faught, but this last month has been a booger. Now as of Sunday I think we are back on the straight road of love. We are going to start dating again and getting our old love back. The last two days the weather has kept him from working and we have been together after I get off at noon. It has been amazing.

FORTY LIST MARK OUTS...Well the rain came in on Monday so Bubba and I went to lunch. After lunch I got to kiss my husband in the rain. It is totally amazing. It was a cold rain so I don't recommand that, but we will do this again because it was so right. I also was out of my box that day because I'm not a rain person and we got soaked. It was pouring. I'm a shower girl, no lakes, no ponds, no no no. So the skinny dipping is going to be a challenge for me also. I am working on reading the Bible through in a year.

This weekend is going to be full of Bubba and Tammy time. I can not wait for this. We need this. I don't think I have talked to my husband this much or spent this much time with him in over a year. I few like I'm falling in love with him again. I do and have always loved him, but this is so different. I am excited to see whats to come. If anyone has ideas on this or has had this problem let me know. The more imput the better it shall go.

To be Forty and in love again with a man you have been with for 15 years is out of this world.I love Bubba.

Have a blessed day.

Well it has been so long since I blogged. I have been a little preoccupied. My husband has been home since the 16 of February. It has been great. So I will try to do a quick write up on the last few days.

TUESDAY THE 16...Well I talk to Bubba all day as he was getting finished with the job to be able to come home. Man am I ever excited. Still haven't told the kids. Going to wait to see how they act when we pull in and see the bucket truck on the road. I have a relay meeting to go to tonight. It will have to be short and sweet cuz i want to visit then cuddle with my husband.

Well when I get off work I talk to bubba and he is almost home. He wants Taco Bell for dinner. So I go and get dinner. Pick up the girls and Katie then we head toward the house. As we pull into the drive Cameron ask why there is a bucket truck by our house. The girls look up to see that is their Daddys truck and start to scream and jump up and down. They are very excited.

We all have dinner together then I go to the meeting. Bubba could barely eat cuz the girls just want to sit on him. When I get home Bubba has the kids in bed. I am glad cuz now we get to talk. We lay in bed to tlk and cuddle and Bubba falls asleep before 9. That means he is wiped out.

WEDNESDAY THE 17...Bubba's crew is off for the rest of the week. Since Sunday they have put in 50 hours. So they took off to rest and see their families. Bubba decides to take the bucket truck to Perkins and get t=his truck. When back in Guthrie he gets his oil changed. Then gets my van and has the oil changed and washes it. Wow!

THURSDAY THE 18....Bubba gets a new stereo for his truck.

FRIDAY THE 19...Well I didn't work all day I took off from both jobs today. Came home and had lunch with Bubba then took a 3 hour nap. Man that was great. Then we took the kids to Chuck E Cheese. They have changed that place so much. We had a blast. After we leave the kids ask can we go back to Chuck E Cheese. We get home relax and watch some TV.

SATURDAY THE 20... We get up early cuz I have a eye doctor appointment. I get new glasses so that is one of my 40 list done. Yeah me! After this we go to eat breakfast together while Shelby watches the kids. Come to find out she meets up with Katie and takes everyone to the zoo. Then Bubba and I go to get a full body message. It was so amazin. After that we went ot the movies to see Wolfman. Not a good movie. I thought it would be scary, but no just stupid. After that we went to dinner at Red Lobster. Yum. Now off to the bar. Which we didn't stay long. I was very uncomfortable. That's a whole story for something else not a blog. Anyway it led into a hugh fight at our house. Which has only happened one time in 13 years of marriage and 15 years of being together. Not bad, but then again not good either.

SUNDAY THE 21... I don't know if this is something to write about, but have been thinking about this all this day. Since I have turned 40 my hormones have been drivin me crazy. I don't know how to explain it any other way. Just wonder if I'm the only one? Today we went to my Dads for dinner. Great times.

MONDAY THE 22...I learn that my computer is broke and that I have viruses all over hte place. So no computer. Katie says she can try to fix it. Bubba and me are still having trouble. We can't get the truth out all the way yet. Why are guys so shut up in their emotions? It is driving me crazy. We are talking about the problems slowly though. So I guess thats a start.

WEDNESDAY THE 24...I find out why my somputer has viruses. Mike Gatlin is a genius he fixed it. Saved me alot of money. WOO HOO! I meet with Jennifer to find out some info on a argument. Man a lie is easier to fix then the other. So now I come home from the meeting and church. Bubba and I have a talk then make up. wow. Amazin.

THURSDAY THE 25... I mess with Bubba all day about meeting for lunch. Well he does come to the church so April finishes my work for me so I can come home to have lunch with my husband. Theres another one off my list. I suprised my husband because he is not use to me being so open about sex. Whish is totally out of my box too.

Well I have got to get off here for now. Maybe that will be a start. I will try to blog tomorrow. If I can quit getting so distracted.

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I haven't blogged in a while. I have been busy visiting and cuddling with my husband. I am so glad he is home safe and sound. Now we are praying that the weather doesn't go crazy again. I know we still have winter left. Yuk.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW... It was so beautiful outside today. The kids played outside and got to run off some of the energy that they have built up. Cameron and Shelby even pulled out the flip flops. Oh do I missmy flip flops.

ALL ABOUT BUBBA...Well he got a thank you letter in the mail from a lady down in Altus. Thanking him for getting her electric back on. That is so awesome. I wish I would of thought about sending a note to people that do me that kind of HONOR. So I am going to make it a goal to try to work on that. I am really glad that he was able to help people. I am also very glad that he is home. We sure missed him.

OUT OF A THREE YEAR OLDS MOUTH...Jaycee went to daycare on Wednesday morning. The day after our Daddy got home. She tells April that her Daddy is at home and slept in her Mommies bed. Wow.

Macey tells her Daddy that he can't go away any more cuz it makes her cry real bad.

I'm glad I got to blog for a little bit. Will try again soon. Have a blesed time. Thanks for all your prayers and listening to me be a cry baby with no husband and being a single mom. Still HATS off to single moms.

Well I haven't blogged in a while. I have had a very busy few days. With no husband there is a lot of work to do. It's insane. Hats off to all the single moms out there. Gotta love you.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW...It is really cold outside. The wind is a little strong. At least there is no snow or rain. On Sunday morning it snow about a inch, but then melted away. Saturday was a very nice day out.

THINGS I AM CREATING...I am still working on Shelbys scarf. Plus I am working on a special thing for someone special. That takes some work.

THINGS I DID THIS WEEKEND...on Friday night the First Assembly church had a kids night out. So Katie, Shelby, and I went to dinner. They gave us a kid menu for Katie even though she is 29 she looks about 13. I had 2 tecates and it was great. Had to have my niece drive me home. Katie and Shelby put it all over Facebook. I guess that happens when your not a big drinker. So on Saturday Shelby and I took the kids to the mall. We had to but some cancer braclets and a beenie for Juan. Then we went to build a bear. Jaycee and Macey loved it they did a frog and put in a box that sings a Icarly song. Cameron did a dog with a rel heartbeat. They had a good time. On Sunday we went to church then to Daad and Deb's for family time. We had a good day. Missed Bubba. Then we went to First Assembly for a Valentine thing that my mom did a skit. She does a Miss Hatter thing. It is really crazy to see her do this. She is good at it though. Not a very good Valentine's without Bubba, but we will do something when he gets to come home.

Today has been a crazy day. Worked at the daycare then off to take Cameron to the doctor for a med check. Then we had to go to Perkins to get Bubba's check. But not before a nap. I love naptime and bedtime. These are my favorite times.

I am goin to sign off for the moment. Have a blessed day.

Today was a very rough day. I am tired of being a single parent. If this weather would just stop Bubba could come home.I need some major rest and relaxation. I would also like to have some cuddle time with my husband.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....Well there was some snow flurries today here. It is cold too. So I am so ready for Spring.

Macey had to go to the doctor yesterday for a rechecck on her ears. Well everything looked good. This morning she says her ear hurts. Now thats crazy.

Today the girls talk to their Daddy on the phone. Well they have to know where he is cuz they are in Guthrie. He tells them Altus. They say it so funny. They are ready for him to come home too. They aren't sleeping very well either which makes it hard for me to rest. They sleep all over the bed. Oh God bring our Daddy home soon.

Well I hope everyone enjoyed my video that Katie put on my blog for me. I thought it was a great joy to watch. I would beexcited to be able to do one of these or to watch one in person. It is amazin to me what people put on their cardboard. I don't know what I would put. That's a thought though. What would you put on your cardboard?

BUBBA'S CREW FOR THE DAY.... They worked with another crew today because the boss and one guy had to come back home. The one had court and the boss wife is not doing well. Don't know the problem, but please pray for comfort and peace for both of them. They got some more electric on today. They also got lots of snow and cold weather there. If this doesn't stop they will be there forever. Oh help me.

Here's hoping you have a blessed day.

What a day. On the bus we are driving and it gets overheated. Well come to find out one thing broke then broke something else and then wouldn't let the engine cool down. Well something like that. But by the afternoon route we had our bus back. Yeah!

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW.... It is very cold outside. It is also dark. We did get to see the sun today. Woo Hoo for the sun.

NEWS FROM BUBBA....Today Bubba and the crew got electric on for a lot of people. One lady came out to give them hugs. Another lady wanted address for the crew so she could send them something for when they get home. Also a letter for the boss to tell how great the crew is and a big thanks. Bubba says they got about 3 miles of line done today.They are in Altus Ok. That is for today.

They kids are missing their Daddy like crazy.

I am working on my forty list. I am working on knowing the fluids in my car. Well the transmission is acting crazy so I have someone show me how to put it in. Well I didn't have a funnel. So I sot it all over the concrete at the church. So I had to learn today how to clean up a mess. Woo Hoo. I have learned that kitty litter is used for lots and lots of things. Who would of thought.

Well I am very tired and ready for the bed. So I am hoping that everyone has a blessed day.

Today was a great day. My son, niece, and mom got baptized. Then we had dinner after church. Great fellowship.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....It is starting to sprinkle. The weather is supposed to get nasty. Not a good idea. My husband leaves back out at 5 am in the morning. The bad weather just keeps him away longer. That sucks.

I AM THANKFUL FOR.... My parents. Deb is a insperation to me as a wife. She takes care of my Dad and still has a full time job. I know she gets stressed at times with him, but she loves him no matter. It is amazin to me how that works even after almost 28 years. They love each other so much still. I pray that I am that way when I even get to 25 years.

OUT OF A THREE YEAR OLDS MOUTH....Today after we get home from church Jaysee is talking to my mom. She asked her if she was Baptized in JESUS water. It was so cute. At church they didn't want Pastor to dunk her in the water. They cried no my Grammy.


Jaycee came to me to say "Shelby was little like us one time."

My sister reminds me of what they did at Christmas time. We went shopping at Crest. Well I gave them money to put in the Salvatin Army thing. When they got up to the man they say Do you not have a job? The man says yes this is my job. They say oh your not a homeless bum. We about died.

Man they come up with some great stuff.

Today has been an awesome day. My husband got to come home for the weekend. Woo Hoo. That is very exciting for us, but he leaves out again on Monday morning. So for now we will enjoy our time.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....The sky is cloudy and it is really cold, but for now there is no rain or snow in sight.

I AM THANKFUL FOR...My mom (Deb) who is being baptized tomorrow at First Assembly of God. Along with her will be my son Cameron and my niece Destiny. Cameron was baptized a few years back when we did this as a family, but he now wants to do it again.I didn't see anything wrong with this. So we will all be going to watch this. Jenae will be singing. My Dad and Bubba will be going with. Now that's what I call a good time for family time.

THINGS I DID TODAY...I got up to clean house today. Then to get ready for our movie marathon. What a great time we had. We first had breakfast at the Crackel Barrel. Good food and good company. Then off to the movie with Denise, Jenae, Katie, and myself. We went to see Dear John and When in Rome. Both htese movies are great movies. We already have ones picked out for March. Now to pick the day we will be doing this.

OUT OF THREE YEAR OLDS MOUTHS...The other night we talked to Daddy on the phone. He told the girls he was getting ready for bed. Well then they had to get the pj's on so they could talk to him. To be like him. So when he leaves again we will have to have our pj's on to talk to Daddy when we are saying goodnight.

Last night I got some good sleep, but tonight I will get some great sleep. I am so glad Bubba and the crew are home safe. God is good.
Hope everyone has a blessed day.

Well today has been a bad day. I'm going on little sleep each night. I think it's starting to catch up with me. When I got up this morning I knew I should of stayed in bed. I have been very grouchy to everyone. On the bus I had some chocolate and it helped for a little bit, but grouchy is still here. So I am writing a short blog then heading to bed.

I have a friend Mike Gatlin who is in the hospital. Have not learned the details yet. Just would like everyone to be praying for him and his family.

My husband is still gone. Don't know when we will be able to see him. The kids are going Daddy crazy. They keep asking for him. It is sad. I thought I would cry with Cameron on the phone asking when he would see him again. It's getting harder each day.

Hope everyone has a blessed day. Hoping for a better night and day.

Well this is HuMp Day. Hope you had great day.




OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....The weather is driving me crazy. If it doesn't stop soon I will never have my husband home again. That sucks.
I AM CREATING....I am working on a scarf for Shelby. It is bright pink.
I AM HEARING....Quiet. It is bed time at the Lee house. This is one of my favorite times. It is so nice to be able to have mommy time before going to bed.
FROM THE GCS CLASSROOM...We made heart caterpillars today. Worked on the letter D. I love teaching. I have 8 kids. It is great.
OUT OF A THREE YEAR OLDS MOUTH...Today we had to go to the doctor with Macey. We went because she was peeing in her pants and lots of times. Each day it got worse. So I thought it may be kidney infection or something. So at the doctor we hacve to pee in a cup. Thank God the toilets at the doctors are clean. I sat her on there and put the cup down so I can catch the pee. At this time Macey keeps telling me "I can't momma it's to small." "Momma you can't pee in a cup." "Momma it's really to small". She kept doing this for 30 minutes. It is craziness to get a 3 year old to pee in a cup. Good luck if you have to do that. It was a task and a half.

Well Bubba is out still. Pink, Ok has seen more of my husband then we have. This weather is keeping him really busy. His crew is doing ok. They will be able to come home for day or so when they get all of that area done. Then he will be going to Duncan I think for a month or two. Man, we may die from missing our husband/daddy. I am very thankful that he has a job, but sure do miss him.

Have a blessed day.

OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....There is little snow, but lots of mud.
I AM THINKING...That the ground hog seen his shadow. Now people don't know what that means. Well in my years of this I see it that we have 6 more weeks of winter. It is going to be crazy. That is not my idea of fun.
I AM READING.... Lovely bones. Shelby says it is a good read, but strange. Can't wait to see how it turns out.

Today I added a new goal to my list. I have got to learn how to put fluids in my car.I don't know how to do that. With my husband being gone so much and my Dad having the stroke I don't have anyone to help me or do it for me. So today I decided that I was going to learn that no matter what.

Well its time to get ready for the bed. Not sleeping much cuz girls aren't sleeping.They want Daddy. It kinda sad too.

Hope you all have a blessed day.

Today is my Birthday. Yeah Forty. I am still very excited about the year to come. I had a great day of work. When I pulled into the church my mom (Deb)has put candles all in the snow out front of the church with a sign (the candles are yellow construction paper with red tissue paper). Then around the poles she put caution tape with 40 on it. Well the kids at daycared loved it so did my girls. Then when Pastor Gatlin came in he was crying really loud. The kids went out to see whats wrong. Well he tells them that he is crying because I'm Forty today. The kids are like Yup we are having cake. He says well do you remember Moses. Well Ms. Tammy was there when Moses parted the Red Sea. Then every time I turned around he was crying and asking when the viewing was. No matter what he did it's okay I am still Great with Forty.
OUTSIDE MY WINDOW....There is still snow on the ground. The most of it is melted. Who knows what the night will bring. Then more to come like Wednesday. That sucks.
I AM THANKFUL FOR....My husband and the crew. They are freezin there butts off and being soakin wet. It cracks us up that they have to cut trees down before they do the line. Then sometimes just cut the trees and no fixing the powerline. Thats a easy fix.
Well I had a awesome birthday party. Man they did good.
I'm really missing my husband and so are the kids.
I am ready for Spring.
Have a blessed day.

Outside my window....There is still lots of snow. I'm ready for spring. How much longer?
Happenings of the day.... Well got up this morning to girls in my bed. They heard knocking on the window. Then I drove to Perkins in the snow slushy roads. Trying to get home to have dinner at my Dad's and moms. Well at 6 we headed over and rounded the corner there was tons of cars there. Yes a suprise FORTY party. Lots of people there. We had a great time. Got lots of neat gifts. One was a suprise girls weekend with my best friend Denise. Two A quilt from Katie that she sewed herself. Third a scrapbook from Deb (mom). It made me cry.
Well it has been a long day I will go into more details tomorrow when I have more time.
Praying Bubba and the crew stay safe and get lots of rest.
Have a blessed day.

Outside my window...There is about six inches of s...
Outside my window...There is about six inches of snow and who knows how think the ice is under it. It is still snowing. Will be til about 10 tonight.
I am creating...I am still working aon a scarf for Jamey. I should of been finished, but I have had a lot of distractions. I only have 10 more rolls so should be finished tonight.
I am hoping...and also praying for Bubba. He has been in about 5 diffeeent towns already today. He has got a lot of electric back on. Busy Busy. God please let the whole crew be safe as they are helping others.
Around the house...We have watched movies all day. Tryin to stay away from the news. Showing the kids on the map where Daddy is at the time he moves to another town. They think this is a fun game.


I am not a person to stay by myself. I truly do not like it. With Bubba gone we have to be alone. Yuk! When Bubba left he packed for 2 weeks. Every time he calls he tells me of how bad it is out there. I feel bad for those people. Bubba sent us a picture of his head, his hair was frozin, he forgot to wear his beanie out of the truck. the kids sure miss him. Jaycee was upset when she got up and Daddy wasn't in bed. She wanted to give him kisses. Then Macey started in about she needed to kiss Daddy. Being 4 and missing Daddy isn't easy. We try to explain that Daddy has to help others and that helps for a little bit.

Some things out of a 3 year olds mouth....Macey got out of the shower and Daddy was getting her ready for bed. Well she tells him her hair is uglyand he says he will make it pretty. So then he starts to comb her hair and she says "Daddy don't make my hair cry."

Then sitting at Wal-mart we was waiting on Cameron the girls in the back seat talking. Jaycee sees a man with a cowboy hat on and says there is a cowboy. Macey wants to know if he rode a horse. So they watch him as he walks up to a big truck. Both saying oh man thats his truck.

One other thing Jaycee tells Bubba God gave Mommy big boobs and Katie little ones.

This is what we get to hear daily. I'm just hoping I will remember to blog them so I can remember them all.

Have a blessed day.

Outside my window...There is lots of ice. It almost sounds like hell at times. Its amazin to me how it was so warm yesterday and freezin rain and sleet today.
I am thankful....For my husband that gets to go out to help others in this time of need. The crew that he is on working for ELS was asked to come back. When he went during Christmas to Tipton,OK his crew did great work. So the people in charge down there called to request them to come this time if the ice hit that town. Well it has and they get to leave at 4am.
I am thinking... I am so excited about turning forty. As you all know. Well I get to take this big step into my forties without a husband. I just have to keep thinking that he is out doing good. This is his calling.
I am reading....Dear John. I have read this about 4 years ago. But thought it would be a good read before I go see the movie with all my girl friends.
I am hoping...For a safe trip for Bubba and the crew. Plus for safety while they are working on the power lines.
Around the house...Well since we are all iced in it has been a inventful day. We all took naps, watched a few movies, played dress up and party, had some dinner, now in the process of gettin ready for bed. Yeah for bedtime.
One of my favorite things....is scrapbooking. I am in the process of getting all the things gathered for "Happy birthday Scrappin for a Cure." This is a fun time to get together to scrapbook and raise money for Relay for Life. Two things I love.
Here's hoping you have a blessed day.

Well today has been a eventful day. Lots of process. I learned how to do the food program at work. Yeah me. That will help April out so much.
I am feeling very blessed to. I am a monitor on a special needs bus as most people know. I have a little boy on the bus that has been on there for 3 years. This year his babysitter has been letting him try to walk once they get on the bus. He was doing well with that. One day one of his aids at school tells us that they are going to get a wheelchair for him. I thought I would cry my eyes out. I have prayed and prayed that the paperwork didn't go through. I felt if they did this it would just hold him back. Yes it is a pain in the butt if you have to carry him, but you have to make some sacrifices in this line of work. Well he has gotten better as the days have gone. On Monday we drove up to the school and the aid had him by one hand walking. Yes walking. Then today we drove up and he was standing by himself on the fence. This is why I love my job. To see these kinds with special needs bloom as the days go by is totally awesome.
Another thing that happened like this was the first day of school. A little boy who is hearing impaired has never spoken and just made noises. Well he got the hearing implants last school year. So we go to pick him up the first day of school and he runs to the bus to get on. I was waiting at the front to help him. When he gets on he looks up at me and says "hi Ms. Tammy" I just cried like a big baby. Just like I am at this moment remembering. Wow this is a blessed job.
Well today while riding on the bus out in the country of Guthrie, America I seen a live bobcat. In my almost forty years of bing in and around Guthrie I have never seen a bobcat. It was very exciting.
The experience of twins....This morning Jaycee tells me her ear hurts. So I check her for fever and find none. Well after nap Macey wakes up cryin bad complaining of her ear hurting. So I call the doctor to get them in a 4. Sister had to take them cuz I had to work. Jaycee had double ear infection and Macey had a severe double ear infection. Wow lets do everything together.
So now home to end the day. What a day.

I am working on changing the background to my blog and a new style to blog. That way I can just fill in the blanks instead of coming up with something each day. That is really hard for me. I think of stuff through out the day and then by the time I get home I forget. Don't think to write it down either.
I got a really neat e-mail today that said.....When all else is lost...dance to make your heart sing and fill the darkness around you. This is so much like life to me.
We are waiting to see if this storm hits Oklahoma. Bubba got a call at work today that in Tipton, OK they want his crew to come if there is any problems. Tipton put them on reserve. That must mean the crew does awesome work. What a proud wife that makes me. Yeah Bubba.
My mom (Deb) has volunteered to watch my kids so me and Bubba can go out Saturday night for my FORTY birthday. Now here comes the bad weather to mess that up. I am prayin that the Oklahoma weather men don't know what they are talking about.
Today was a great day. I am praying for the week to go by fast. My birthday is in 6 days. Man, I am so excited. I just can't wait.
Still working on my 40 list. I am stuck. Any ideas I'm up for suggestions.

Well today was a great day. Went to church with Katie and the girls. Then we went to Dad and Deb's house. Today wass make your own pizza day. Wow. That was lots of fun. Katie hasn't made homemade pizza before. So she got to yet again experience a new thing at the Goad house.
I am still trying to work on my forty things. I have asked everyone for some ideas because I can't think of any. I am tryin so hard. My family flipped out with the pole dancin. I don't wnat to learn pole dancin for any reason,but to get fit. Those chics have lots of muscles. Then I may be able to beat up my husband and brother.
Some of my forty things will help me get out of my box which is one of the things. The blog will also help in journaling. So I may be able to get a lot of this list done. If anyone has any ideas for me I will be thankful.
I am so excited because my best friend started her blog today. Man that's another one to help with my list cuz I will be able to keep in touch with her.
So all in all today was great.

Wow. This may be a challenge in it's own. Trying to remember to blog and work on the blog is a big one for me. I think this is awesome and will be a great experience. Man, I got to get this in order.

I went out with Laurie, Christy, Tammy ons Wendy. We had a great time. Love to watch everyone enjoy themselves was amazing.

This week was a crazy week. I was sick and off work. That sucks.

This should be a great experience. Thanks to Jennifer. I am so excited about turning FORTY. Can't wait to see what this decadebrings me.